2 With Spirit

if i had known that night -

i would have held you a lot tighter. touched you a little softer. memorized your voice, asked you to say my name again. i would have bargained with the gods – sold my soul for a few more minutes to see your smile, hear you laugh. watch you move. i would have smiled at you so many more times and told you how much i love you and appreciate you and honor you. and i would have said i’m sorry for all the things i couldn’t take back. i would have told you a funny story and asked you tell me five. i would have kissed your cheek and ran my fingers through your hair – and whispered all the reasons why i love you. i would have tickled your feet and scratched your back and held your head while you slept. i would have cooked your dinner and ran your bath.†i would have held your hands and kissed your fingers one by one and made love to you all day. and i would have held you so tight noone could take you away from me. i would have turned off your phone and locked the door.