2 With Spirit

restless, bored, anxious, on edge – not a good combination for me. Luckily I recognize it early and know to look for a detour…

borrowing this from Edge (ty). it’s a meme? I think a real meme is blogged and passed along or picked up by other bloggers. In this case I’m just using it as a distraction…ok

 

mark…set….go-

  100 things about me

I can change the alternator bolt on an 86 Fiero GT.

I can drive a tractor and run a blade.

I’m addicted to Code Red Mt Dew and apple juice.

I have 2 tattoos that can’t be seen unless I show them to you.  -heh

My middle name is Jo.

I’m afraid of the dark.

I’m afraid of small tight places.

I’m working on the height thing – had to get on the roof 3 times last year.

I have a mannequin in the corner of my bedroom.

Pulp Fiction is my favorite movie.

I think Ernest T Bass is too freakin’ cool.

I cook a mean batch of calf fries.

I collect vintage clothing -vintage as in 20’s – 50’s era.

I always wear 5 pieces of jewelry – watch, gold necklace Rick was wearing, Rick’s wedding band on my left thumb-held in place by a plain malachite band, and a gold ring with a heart shaped ruby on the middle finger of my right hand.

I got impeached out of my DECA presidency in high school.  (don’t ask)

I would rather bathe in lava than have to deal with a service technician for any reason.

I know what it means to be hungry.

I dropped out of college because speech was required and I was that terrified of speaking to a group.

I’ve used CPR in real life to save one.

I was an accountant for 8 years.

I’ve broke horses for a living.

I’ve played pool for a living.

My dad was a professional pool player.

It’s been 2 months and I still can’t find my keys.

I can fit through a doggie door (learned that when I did know where my keys were- locked inside the house)

I’ve never stolen so much as a piece of bubble gum in my life.

My hearing is so sensitive I can usually hear my neighbors talking in their house from inside my house. (yes, this has been tested, witnessed, and confirmed)

I wish I could be invisible for one day. (that oughta scare some people)

When I was a little girl I dreamed of being a track vet for racehorses.

I’m electronically inept -no, and I don’t want to know how to program the VCR/DVD player.

I have a birthmark on the inside of my left thigh.

My house furnishings are strictly antique- mostly mahogany.

I’ve taken golf lessons but never played a game.

I will call the police if I see an animal locked inside a car during the summer – every time.

Humming drives me insane.

My birthday is on 9/11.

I have a wicked sense of humor.

I read tarot cards.

Driving directions in this format:  north on hwy #,  east on ….blah blah   -and I can find anything.
(directions by landmark ‘turn left by the gas station then go 2 blocks and turn right’-  I will never find it.

I caught audio fever from all of you who recently posted audio on your blogs though I don’t know what I would read or say should I decide to post one.

I am the MASTER of subtle "you really shouldn’t have done that" shoulder taps.  

I hate malls.

I love estate sales, auctions, garage sales, and resale shops.

I am deeply spiritual.

I believe in Spirits.

Sometimes I know things are going to happen that I have no previous knowledge of- other than just knowing?

I would risk my own life to save the lives of my dogs.

I don’t care for sweets.

I once got a public nudity ticket for skinny dipping at the lake.  (what can I say, I was 19)

I miss Rick.

I miss my dad.

I don’t do roller coasters.

I’m always, always late. You can get me there on time but you have to con me- tell me it’s an hour earlier than it actually is.

I think the doctor/founder of the partial hysterectomy should receive the nobel peace prize.

I was riding horses before I learned to walk.

I need a couple hours alone each day to recenter,  regroup, and resane.

I wish I had been a better wife.

I wish I didn’t know what it means to hear the train. (no I won’t elaborate). 

Cheeseburger w/ no onions is my favorite breakfast.

My temper- takes a helluva lot to light the fuse and longer for it to burn (too long probably). when it reaches the end of the burn and the temper blows- it’s cold hell.

I have really long hair. bangs and back are down to my waist. 

my depression and craziness over Rick’s death-  I worry alot about the long and short term effect it may have on Hannah.

Crowds make me nervous.

I don’t drink. (choice not necessity)

I’m still not sure if I’ll ever get "over what happened" enough to want to fall in love again.

I’m ok with it if I don’t.

I wish I could draw.

I feel lonely tonight.

I have lived in 16 houses in my lifetime.

I have owned 2 sports cars, 2 pick-ups, 1 S10 Blazer, 1 2dr small car.

I’ve been shot at.  (they missed) 

5/24/2005  There are still days like today when I can’t stop crying because I miss him so damn much.

2 is Hannah and me,  with spirit is Rick

I’ve reached the point that I can watch the video of them removing Rick from the Tracker and look at the police photos without flinching.

I never did find my keys. I’ve since lost 2 TV remotes.

I never check my voice mail.

I’m a licensed manicurist/nail tech.

I’ve been under the knife 3 times in my life.

Chocolate chip cookie dough.

I know more than I ever wanted to know about autopsy procedure.

I have nightmares.

I can get as irritated with someone as I used to get with Rick.

not a bad thing because it means the numbness is less numb.

I will always have a thing for bad boys.

I recognize the signs earlier than I ever have.

I may not heed them, but I see them.

I’m not as strong as I would like to be.

The one thing everyone knew about “Rick’s wife” was that she (me) didn’t cheat- ever.

I’ve never been able to watch horror movies – they give me nightmares.

I rarely watch TV or movies because the slightest violence makes me cringe. Only been over the last few years I developed such a huge diversion to it. Weird huh?

I hope someday to be loved as deeply as I’ve loved.
I hope I’m capable of loving to that depth again.

I’m monogamous by nature.

When I’m single – I’m not on constant lookout or search mode for my next date or prospective partner.
I think this is the result of being ok with me.