Posted on Monday 26 September 2005
is there anything you hold hope for that you know is 99.99999% unlikely to happen?
I do, in the back of my mind somewhere I hope something will happen-
someone will find a way to travel back in time thereby undoing the wreck;
or
I’ll happen onto some kind of unknown door to take me back so that I can change the events of that morning;
or
I’ll be the only person in the history of man that God will simply answer my prayers and fix everything;
or
or
or
I know none of these things can/will happen yet I carry this little bit of hope around that it’s possible because that’s what we’re told our entire lives right? anything’s possible… so it’s ok if I keep waiting for him because maybe, just maybe ya know…
just wondered if anyone else does this?
My opinion only– I don’t feel that your continued quest for the truth is what keeps you tethered to the past. I feel it is the above which holds you. I feel your continueing this quest is harmful to you and the total truth to what happened is over and is now in the hands of “all”. There is nothing wrong with holding on to the “loving memory in your spirit”, but you must realize “he is at peace and the spirit is free”. You will do no honor to him or to yourself and that beautiful child, if you can not find peace within and place that “special love that you are gifted” where it will glow and feed the future. Anything is possible hereafter. With love and concern